And the world turns on

Sometimes I wonder if the entire world is changing and I am staying the same, or if it's the other way around. I don't even know. It seems impossible that the entire world is changing. It has, in fact, existed for millenia and not much can fundamentally change its substance. The species change, sure. Humans change, that much is given. But generally speaking the world itself does not change.
So maybe it's just my worldview that is altering. But all of a sudden people seem more self-driven, more motivated by selfish desires. All of a sudden, people seem to have lost their innate goodness that I thought was completely embedded in humanity.
I'm sure either that it was always like this or that I am wrong.
But the apocalypse is coming in a little more than three years. Maybe the world truly is changing.
2012: bullshit or not?
I tend to believe it. Maybe it's just because I want to uphold my carpe-diem outlook that wanes and waxes just as all my outlooks do. Or maybe it's because the self-centered in me wants to be a part of the last generation on Earth.
And then again that brings me (in a combobulated way) to alien life. I wholeheartedly believe in it. How could we possibly be the only beings in a universe? How could this possibly be the only planet among millions, billions, trillions, to support life forms?
therefore I believe that in some way, shape or form, there must be aliens. So maybe the apocalypse won't be the end of the universe, just our world.
I always think about how the only existence we know is our own. I sometimes wonder if everything I experience is real, if the people I know actually exist, because other than my own experience I have no proof of them. I have no proof of anything. I don't actually know if what I think of as the color blue is really blue, because I can't see through anyone else's eyes. What if someone else's blue is my red?
It probably is.

This is how my mind works. This is part of why this blog is called "The Search for the Search." I have so many questions and thoughts, and they are all unfiltered and random. I am even searching for what to search for, searching for what exactly it is I want to question.

Thanks for your time.